kimishiro
11-13-2005, 01:30 AM
Most of you don't know me, for I only pop in every now and then for no particular reason. I'm kinda giddy right now, despite a lot happening.
Allow me to explain:
My life has been on a downfall of sorts.... nothing about "teenage drama" or some exaggerated story about my life, but rather... personal life problems that force one into poverty and beyond.....
Not to get into so much, my brother did something he shouldn't have. He got a minority preg.... and well, he went to jail for it in March... Been there since then, and despite the fact that he may get out for a month or so, he'll more than likely spend an additional two years in prison...
Thats not the good part, of course.
The girl.. just had her baby about two nights ago... but she doesn't want it. She wants to just give it away, being too young to afford it. Steven, my brother, would give anything for a child, as would I.
She can't give it away without his permission, and he won't stand for it. So in his absence(which, as previously stated, could be for 2 years or more) he would need someone raise this child for him.
Despite myself being barely out of highschool, I find myself obligated to do such.
This is a huge responsibility....why am I happy about such an intrusion on my life?
I've always wanted kids... Despite being relatively young (almost 19 =p), its been a dream of mine to raise a child of mine own. I don't know why.... Maybe because I grew up in a daycare for 12 years of my life, and even worked at a preschool for a year(last year).
I love kids, and... for instance, today I was driving on a long trip, and saw a father and daughter pass me on the road. Seeing as the radio is busted, I had to entertain myself (being the only person in the car).
I imagined having a daughter sitting next to me, and how I would entertain her and educate her, teaching her everything I know, and giving her all the love she craves. (I'm sappy, but.. bah) I even found myself making up silly songs that I might one day sing to my own kids...
Anyhoo...maybe I'm just weird...but this is exciting for me. I get to help my brother, by doing something that I want to.
I dunno if any of you get what I'm saying but I'm really giddy right now just thinking about it. Part of it is sad, but for the most part, I'm really happy that I'll be given the option to raise a child.
^_______________^
Allow me to explain:
My life has been on a downfall of sorts.... nothing about "teenage drama" or some exaggerated story about my life, but rather... personal life problems that force one into poverty and beyond.....
Not to get into so much, my brother did something he shouldn't have. He got a minority preg.... and well, he went to jail for it in March... Been there since then, and despite the fact that he may get out for a month or so, he'll more than likely spend an additional two years in prison...
Thats not the good part, of course.
The girl.. just had her baby about two nights ago... but she doesn't want it. She wants to just give it away, being too young to afford it. Steven, my brother, would give anything for a child, as would I.
She can't give it away without his permission, and he won't stand for it. So in his absence(which, as previously stated, could be for 2 years or more) he would need someone raise this child for him.
Despite myself being barely out of highschool, I find myself obligated to do such.
This is a huge responsibility....why am I happy about such an intrusion on my life?
I've always wanted kids... Despite being relatively young (almost 19 =p), its been a dream of mine to raise a child of mine own. I don't know why.... Maybe because I grew up in a daycare for 12 years of my life, and even worked at a preschool for a year(last year).
I love kids, and... for instance, today I was driving on a long trip, and saw a father and daughter pass me on the road. Seeing as the radio is busted, I had to entertain myself (being the only person in the car).
I imagined having a daughter sitting next to me, and how I would entertain her and educate her, teaching her everything I know, and giving her all the love she craves. (I'm sappy, but.. bah) I even found myself making up silly songs that I might one day sing to my own kids...
Anyhoo...maybe I'm just weird...but this is exciting for me. I get to help my brother, by doing something that I want to.
I dunno if any of you get what I'm saying but I'm really giddy right now just thinking about it. Part of it is sad, but for the most part, I'm really happy that I'll be given the option to raise a child.
^_______________^